2007/03/25 - 口齒不清: "吃饅頭"

2006/11/4 Taipei Zoo Pictures
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2007/03/21

Aaron: "Mommy, 我要吃饅頭"
Mommy: "吃饅頭?"  (滿是問號,他怎麼突然想吃饅頭??!)  "你想到喔."
Aaron: "想到了, 要"
Mommy: "可是我們家裡沒有饅頭."
Aaron: "有".... 而且很堅持.
Mommy: "在那裡? 那你找找."
Aaron 搬了椅子,爬上桌子,拿起 tomato 說 "吃饅頭,這裡"

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2007/3/25

Had an inspirational sermon today.

“I have not reached perfect maturity, but I continue to pursue, that one day, I will be possessed.”– said Paul, the great apostle 

To be possessed by the Holy Spirit, thus to live a life of our Lord; instead of to possess the righteousness of the Lord, thus to condemn others.  What a perfect sentence to describe today's scripture, the condemning of an adulteress saved by Jesus's words "be ye without sins the first to throw a stone at her."

Ever since Aaron was born, I've frequently felt unfair and unjust in our marriage.  I feel that I do most of the work in caring for Aaron and I still bring home the same financial income.  CH feels rightly just to stay late at the office, to stay up into odd hours working.  With such devotion at work, he doesn't have the energy to help without house chores like washing dishes, doing laundries, and putting Aaron to bed.  I have been bitter at being the one who does everything.

But Jesus doesn't compare the amount of His work or suffering against those of others.  He undertook what was given because He wanted to.  Because He wanted to, sacrifices are no longer sacrifices, but merely tasks He freely accepted.  Because they were tasks He freely accepted, the doing was a happy process.
So, no one asked me to care for Aaron the way I do.  I could have left Aaron at nanny's and focused on work like I did before I had him.  I could have fed Aaron instant food packages instead of cooking him fresh fishes everyday and having massive to clean.  I could have kept him in diapers instead of having him potty trained at the age of two and having loads to wash during his many accidents.   But, I am proud and happy of being the mother that I am.  So, my bitterness at CH is unjustified because he didn't ask me to, I did.  Being possessed by the mother intuition, thus I lead the life of a devoted mommy.  I have no one to blame but only my blessings to count.